i want to rest

but

I want to rest, I do. But I also want to clean the toys off the floor.

I want to do a full inventory of all the clothes my kids out have outgrown so I stop rummaging through their drawers for something clean, only to discover the arms are too short, or the belly is left exposed.

I want to rest, I do. But I also want to BE someone.

You know like have a unique voice people tune into because it makes them feel seen and maybe even inspired.

I really, really want to rest. But someone has to put away that fake Christmas tree in the corner of the kids’ room with all the flocking on it. It’ll shed on everything, I don’t know if I can cope, but it’s making me mad every time I see it.

I want to rest. But I also want research preschools for the twins.

I want to rest.

I want to

I want

I… gotta go.